Sat early a.m. 28th
Friday I had chemo, did pretty
well thru it but around 7pm I got dizzy again. Went to bed around 10pm and was
still dizzy but when I woke at 1:30am I wasn’t dizzy anymore. I had the most
pleasant experience at this point. As I
lay in my bed I felt like I was being cradled in the arms of my Heavenly
Father. If you can picture a set of hands cupped together with me lying in the
middle; that is exactly where I felt I was. It was the most peaceful feeling I
think I have ever known. I spent time with my Father, had a little snack
(Ensure again and a rice cake), was able to have a private time in the bathroom,
and fell peacefully to sleep. Dr. Burt should be in to see me in the morning,
hopefully he will be pleased and hopefully my numbers are going in the right
direction. I don’t know what are in the plans for tomorrow with the meds; maybe
just some antibiotics. So far; so good. Good night. Thank you Lord, you’ve been
such a blessing.
If someone wants to know the
plain truth of why I feel the way I do about my belief, it’s so simple. Knowing
in your heart, in your very being, that there is a God that made the heavens
and earth; and that He sent His son to die on a cross as a sacrifice, for you,
for me, for anyone to be forgiven of our sins and share a place in heaven with
Him. If you believe that, it is so uncomplicated and it gives you a peace that
goes beyond all understanding. Then you know you have a place for eternity and
are in a right relationship with the Father. It is such a comfort, so
overwhelmingly peaceful.
2:45am
Woke up with hunger pangs, as I
didn’t eat a lot today (yesterday really) so I have some Ensure on the table
and asked for a cup of ice to help. Feel better in the tummy and helped my
headache too which could be because I was hungry or because I wear my eye mask
around my head all night! Nothing like having something wrapped around your
head all night, but if you don’t it’s hard to sleep. Now, little bendy straws
present a problem with drinking the Ensure; when you drink from them, they want
to drip little brown spots on your nice, clean gown and it looks like you’re
lactating chocolate milk! Ha ha ha. Well, you know, we are in a women’s
hospital with lots of babies, so…guys, I don’t know about you but we women have
a good excuse!
Sat, April 28th 6am
The wind is blowing like crazy,
not sure if it’s raining or sleeting or snowing! But, it is definitely windy. I
haven’t turned on the tv or asked anyone yet, but I will. No sunrise this
morning, it’s covered by clouds, but there is definitely one in my heart.
Got woke up about 4am with news
that my hemocrat count was at 7.7 so I had to have 2 units of blood and some
potassium, the potassium part isn’t unusual for me. Got that right away, but it
takes a while for the blood to come up from pharmacy. Once that got running, I
started to feel a bit better, I was definitely feeling like a weak little puppy
there for a while.
Had a most beautiful sunrise this
morning! After the aide helped me to the bathroom, I could see the sun through
the screen of my window just getting prettier and prettier, I managed to get up
and go over to lift up the screen (blinds of a sort) and I took about 10
pictures. Oh, the Glory of the Lord in the morning, it was just beautiful and
really blessed me.
Day +2 today, I am neutropenic
now, counts are at .6 that means the numbers are going where they are supposed
to. And I feel good, I really am feeling
good; I know it’s all in the good Lord’s hands.
My nurse, Alex, just brought in
my blood results and I am officially neutropenic; “TLTC” Too Low To Count. That
means being extra cautious, washing hands, keeping clean, vitals every 4 hours
instead of every 8 hrs. If I walk the halls, I have to wear gown, gloves and a
mask. And visitors must be extra careful too. This is just as expected and
numbers are where they should be at this point! I’m smiling!!
Sunday, April 29th
Dr Burt just came in, we talked
about how I was feeling and that I will be getting another unit of blood today.
We were also talking about the sunrise and he said something I found very
special and want to share it with you. He was telling me how he loves to watch
the sunrise over the lake whenever he can; he says it’s like “watching a moving
mural from God”.
Monday, April 30th
Last day of the month, feel really
good today! Overnight, there was a minor issue that God took care of as only He
can! My nurse Alex was going to tell the PCT Carmellita to let me sleep until
blood draw time of 3am instead of waking me at the 4 hour time of 1:30am for
vitals, but she forgot (that was the God part). So, while Carmellita was taking my vitals, Alex came in to do the
blood draw at this earlier time and it was good thing because my lines were
clogged and she had to order certain “cleaning out” fluid which has to sit in
the lines for an hour to break down the clog. If she had come in at the 3am
time instead of the earlier time, she would not have gotten the blood draw in
time for the early morning reading that has to be down to the lab by a certain
time! Thank you Lord!!
While I was awake I had an Ensure
and a couple of rice cakes because I was hungry! I guess having something to
eat is a good thing; it will help me get stronger, yeah! I was also able to sit
in the bathroom and take care of that business in private. I sure hope when
this is all over and I’m out of here I don’t wake up at 3am to go to the
bathroom! But, for now, let it come when it may.
I was able to go back to sleep
and I slept until 5:45am. It was cloudy this morning so I wasn’t able to get a
sunrise picture today but that’s okay, you can’t have a beautiful sunrise every
morning but it’s still a beautiful day – This is the day the Lord has made, and
I shall rejoice and be glad in it!
Tuesday, May 1st
Starting about 7pm last night,
boy did I get a headache. It started just slightly but by 8pm it was much
worse, so I went to sleep. Woke up about 9 and it was a little more; probably
put it at a 7 out of 10 pain wise, so I called in the nurse and got some
Zophran for my tummy, because that was a little iffy too. She called the doctor on call
and he just wanted to give me some Tylenol, well I wanted to laugh; Tylenol
doesn’t do anything for me, so I got some Norco and I slept pretty good, waking
occasionally with the headache at about a level 4. All I have to say to those who do this behind me, is don't try to be superman; if it starts to hurt or you get nausea, ask for medicine! It it's bothering you, they have a pill for that! haha! Actually, it's much easier on you if you can stop the pain/nausea before it gets too bad than wait and have to fix it later and it takes more meds to help.
When I woke this morning about
4:30am to visit the bathroom, I just felt lighter like I had lost a lot of my
body fluids. My feet and toes felt better and my stomach felt smaller too. I was retaining a lot of fluids and my feet and lower legs were really swollen. My poor little toes looked like sausage links. I
don’t know if it helped, but I lay upside down on the bed with the head of the
bed elevated so that my feet were elevated too! My mom and mother-in-law used
to do this when they felt bloated in the legs/feet and I thought it might be
worth a try! It seems to have worked pretty well!
